Breaking Free from the Guilt
I carry a big secret...I feel guilty about everything! If you know me, you'd probably tell me that it's not a big secret at all. But, I'm not sure people can grasp the the magnitude and the weight that this suck-fest has on me. I know that guilt isn't of God and it is a tool of the devil to keep me spinning my wheels. I have this knowledge but guilt has become a constant companion of mine and perhaps I'm afraid of letting it go because then, really, who am I? I've tried to pinpoint where exactly guilt got a hold of me. I've heard the old saying about "Catholic guilt" or that by being Irish it's in my DNA to feel guilty but I reject these claims because it takes any accountability from me. I think that I tried to be everything that my parents wanted from a daughter and I know that I failed many, many times along the way. As I grew up, I saw that I'd never be like my twin sister who was the ideal child. I say that with some animosity but